Wednesday, January 28, 2009

You're Turning Me Off

so...every1 knows facebook is clearly the center of the universe and the sun indeed is not!
recently i changed my name to the lovely singer and fashionista Keri Hilson....now when i initially went through the process to change my gov't name to her name it took forever so i thought facebook declined it...and i actually didnt want my name to change..but when it randomly did one day somehow it caught every1's eye. idk if the attention is good or bad. but i do know one thing..what started out as a lil joke between me and my friend Lamont (he is the one who put me on to keri and told me that we favor one another) has truly grown into an infatuation. yes every1 i love keri and i am not afraid to admit that i admire her for her taste in fashion, her talent, and her inner and outer beauty. Some of my friends joke with me and say i am obsessed...maybe? maybe not? even LAMONT says im taking it too far....but whatever! i know who i am...and i think that is the lesson i am teaching myself....

so many times people fall in love with celebrities to the point that they imitate their behavior, demeanor, and swag...now i can get with keri's swag because she is oh so feminine and so am i! so that i can not deny, but i just want to set the record straight for all of those who do not understand this undeniable infatuation that i have with "Ms. Keri BAYBEE!"....i love keri's hair, her singing, and her sense of style. and also that i somewhat look like her...i mean what more could u ask for....but in my infatuation with her...i know that my real name is Ashley Katernia Gray and i am a Hampton student and i probably will never meet Keri. i love me...the real me...this Keri thing is truly a phase and i realize that ppl actually think i am her..for pete's sake ppl from south africa are adding me as friends...LOL...but i love every1 and i love Keri....

moral of the story: in your crazy fanatic ways...or quest to find love, friendship or acceptance...know who you are first and never forget who u are...love yourself because if you do not no one else will!

dont hate...just congratulate...

until next time love,

Ashbash K.

Lovers and Friends

"...tell me again can we be lovers and friends...oh its a good look baby...." sang Usher.

Not exactly people. its really not a good look. why would you want to be someone's lover and friend?...and i am speaking in terms of friends with benefits...catch my drift?? because ultimately all it leads to is losing that dear friend that you cherished oh so much before everything got physical in the bedroom, car, chapel, or armstrong stadium. so let's keep it real...i think its time for people to start valuing themselves way more than the "values" that society instills in you through media. come up with your own standards...and dont settle for less than what you KNOW you deserve...honestly i dont deserve to be someone's lover and friend but that's just me...im not gonna lie it has crossed my mind a few times but in that time frame i was certainly tryna learn more about myself and over time i discovered that i dont want to be the other girl that he is cool with in the streets but gets freaky in the sheets. ya dig? this post isnt to disrespect those who have opposing opinions in any form or fashion. i respect the decisions of others and the life choices that people choose to make. however, i personally dont want to be any dude's LOVER and FRIEND....but i wanna be his "lover and his best friend all wrapped into one with a ribbon on it" sang rihanna...(get it?)

until next time,

Ashbash K.